Done.

I will no longer be gathering information on adoption.
We will not be adopting.
It hurts, but it's the truth and i need to accept it.

Here is some more hope....

We have 3 years to wait before we can apply to foster again. Even then we may STILL be unable to be approved. We just have to wait and see. I've already waited three years, why not another three?

They did give me a number to call where i might be able to get answers about our prospects for adoption. No one seems to be able to answer my question outright. Everyone refers me to someone else. A simple "No" would be better than this feeling of "I just don't want to deal with being the person to tell you no. Here, call these people."

I'll call and ask though because there is still that tiny glimmer of Hope.

It's very tiny.
very.

but it is there.

well.

i have a meeting with the worker at DHR today at 2.

I don't have really high hopes. I expect to be told exactly the same thing we have been told for years. ("If you just *insert almost unatainable mission here* then you can apply again and see.") However, it would be so nice if i could get a few truthful answers about our ability to adopt.
A simple yes or no is all i need.
I'm praying.

On the Go.

Last night, Miss Magda finally discovered that she can, indeed, walk unassisted for long bouts.

This morning she walked all over the livingroom and i managed to catch this video.

Enjoy.

Denied

By the quickest response i've even recieved from DHR, We got a letter today dening our application to foster/ adopt through them.
It cites our history with fostering and specific issues that hinder our relationship with them.
I expected this even as i hoped that it would NOT be an issue.

Even though i excepted the denial, It is still heart breaking.

And, I am lost as to which way to go now.

Bedhead!!

Oh, Happy Day!

Why is MY bedhead NEVER this cute?!?

Beauty

just a quick post of cuteness.

Potty!

She is so lovely.

Those eyes.

On the third she will be 14 months.

Amazing.